I believe it was around this time last year, I had such a fear that I had committed this unforgivable sin it sent me into such a major depression that I wondered at the time if I would ever get out of it.
All of these fears came to me, and would attack me in my thoughts. I believed I had “thought” the wrong thing therefore committing this sin.
I would have these awful thoughts, that would not leave it seemed no matter what I did or how hard I prayed, it just wouldn’t leave me. I had so many people talk to me, pray with me, and try to convince me that what I did wasn’t the unforgivable sin, but I just couldn’t shake it.
The depression lasted for months I cried all the time, I just knew I was doomed. I couldn’t live with these thoughts and this torment any longer.
I somewhat felt in the back of my mind, what I had done wasn’t the unforgivable sin, but I just couldn’t quit thinking “what if”.
I also felt I was wrapped tight in chains, and couldn’t move at times, I was so afraid most nights I would sleep with the lights on hugging the bible. I had never been attacked with such fear in my life.
One night, Keith was asleep, and I was wide awake next to him. I was so sick of what was going on in my mind, it was making me mad, and I in desperation came into the living room and laid in the floor face down crying and praying to God, “please take these thoughts away from me”, and then it hit me in the middle of my prayer, I had so much unconfessed junk in my life. I had placed so much ahead of God and had so much garbage that I needed to get rid of, and I realized He wasn’t really priority #1 like He needed to be. When I came to that realization, I asked Him to forgive me for all of my issues and placing EVERYTHING ahead of Him. As soon as I did this, the tears stopped, and the depression and fear and left me. It was amazing!
I have had these tormenting thoughts try to pop in my head from time to time since then, and all I do is think (or sometimes say out loud) the name of Jesus, and I have no problems.
Comment by Crystal Faith Stone
March 29, 2010 @ 1:26 am
This little devo could have saved the 12 year old version of me some trepidation in regards to where I stood with the Lord.
Well done.
I believe it was around this time last year, I had such a fear that I had committed this unforgivable sin it sent me into such a major depression that I wondered at the time if I would ever get out of it.
All of these fears came to me, and would attack me in my thoughts. I believed I had “thought” the wrong thing therefore committing this sin.
I would have these awful thoughts, that would not leave it seemed no matter what I did or how hard I prayed, it just wouldn’t leave me. I had so many people talk to me, pray with me, and try to convince me that what I did wasn’t the unforgivable sin, but I just couldn’t shake it.
The depression lasted for months I cried all the time, I just knew I was doomed. I couldn’t live with these thoughts and this torment any longer.
I somewhat felt in the back of my mind, what I had done wasn’t the unforgivable sin, but I just couldn’t quit thinking “what if”.
I also felt I was wrapped tight in chains, and couldn’t move at times, I was so afraid most nights I would sleep with the lights on hugging the bible. I had never been attacked with such fear in my life.
One night, Keith was asleep, and I was wide awake next to him. I was so sick of what was going on in my mind, it was making me mad, and I in desperation came into the living room and laid in the floor face down crying and praying to God, “please take these thoughts away from me”, and then it hit me in the middle of my prayer, I had so much unconfessed junk in my life. I had placed so much ahead of God and had so much garbage that I needed to get rid of, and I realized He wasn’t really priority #1 like He needed to be. When I came to that realization, I asked Him to forgive me for all of my issues and placing EVERYTHING ahead of Him. As soon as I did this, the tears stopped, and the depression and fear and left me. It was amazing!
Comment by Crystal Faith Stone March 29, 2010 @ 1:26 amI have had these tormenting thoughts try to pop in my head from time to time since then, and all I do is think (or sometimes say out loud) the name of Jesus, and I have no problems.
This little devo could have saved the 12 year old version of me some trepidation in regards to where I stood with the Lord.
Comment by Emily Smith March 30, 2010 @ 9:37 pmWell done.